Wednesday, September 17, 2008

I LOVE my kids!

Oh the joys of motherhood. I could list off a billion things why I adore my kids, but I won't. I can't type that fast and you don't want to read that much. But sometimes I catch myself looking at Kyle and thinking.....he's mine? really? Watching him play and figure out new and exciting things. I sit in the rocking chair at night with Hailey nursing her to sleep. Seeing her amazing blue eyes gaze back at me and that look, I can't explain it. It's a feeling that goes deep, that will forever be etched in my memory. I am thinking about these things because I know it won't last long. Kyle is 3. Next fall he will be heading off to preschool, like a big boy should. Sigh. Hailey will be one in October, where did that year go? I feel like I just left Methodist with a tiny 7lb, 4oz, bundle of sweetness. I will be slowly weaning her. That is a bittersweet change. A change of freedom for me, but the change of the sweet bonding mommy and daughter moments we've had. They grow up so fast. I don't want to take the time I am at home with them for granted. Days can be challenging, at times I want to pull out my hair in frustration, but that is when God gives me mercy and grace to see the beauty that I have. I love my kids, I really do.

Kyle has been talking about Jesus lately. We are trying to raise our kids to understand that no matter where you are Jesus is there and you can always talk to him. You don't have to just sing or pray at church, you don't just pray for your food, etc. So the other night, Dan was putting him to bed. (Daddy is more fun at bedtime than Mommy. I've been banned) They always sing a song and then pray. Dan asks Kyle who he wants to pray for...and it is always the same people (Aunt Patty, Nathan, Logan & Iris) and Dan prays for everyone else. After Kyle prayed, Dan said, rather enthusiastically, "Great prayer Kyle, Jesus is so proud of you and He loves you so much." Kyle's responds, his voice kinda whiny, begging like..."Daddy, I need Jesus!"
Don't you just want to eat him?! He has been saying things about Jesus a lot lately. The other day he was laying on the floor playing by himself. I was feeding Hailey her lunch and he looked up and exclaimed, "Mommy, Jesus is here!" I said, "Really Kyle, what is he doing?" Kyle: "just playing...a few seconds go by....Mommy, I need Jesus." Amen Kyle, Amen! Lately I have been asking him if he has had any dreams. So he got up from his nap the other afternoon, and Dan comes out and says" Kyle why don't you tell mommy about your dream." Kyle explains, eyes wide with excitement, " Kyle and grandpa and Jesus went to the museum. AND we saw dinosaurs. BIG dinosaurs and tiny dinosaurs. I said, "wow Kyle that's really neat. Did Jesus like the museum and the dinosaurs?" Kyle said, "Um, yes!" :) Just tellin' it like it is!

"from the lips of children and infants you have ordained praise" Psalms 8:2

Thursday, September 11, 2008

I am alive & well

Just wanted to clarify to everyone that I am here & alive. Life has been rather busy & to say the least a little challenging too. We are doing well, we are blessed beyond measure, but we are being pressed. Pressed to really understand the meaning of trust. Do I trust the Lord that HE will provide for my family. Do I trust Him in all final decisions & trusting Him enough to give Him control. Ouch. It's tough. It hurts, I get tired & I am ready to throw in the white towel & say I surrender. But what will I surrender & will it be to my flesh, my desires? What I think should happen & in this way? Oh the joys of being changed. God is good, ALL THE TIME!
I have a lot to share, some fun moments with Kyle, some fun pictures that I will post later. I have to get back to making dinner.....spaghetti & meatballs. YUM-O!